Landscaping

Life is a fascinating mixture of confusion and clarity. I like that it's fluid- I like that action and consequence changes the landscape of our very existence. It's scary, but empowering. It's a potential that waits to be tapped in to, and those opportunities change and shift depending on which ones we take and which ones we let pass us by. I think I've seen it as scary for too long. I think I still see it as scary. And I think that in itself needs to change.

Thankfully, there's been a very slow growing light appearing at the end of a long tunnel over the last few days and weeks. I won't be here forever. There's an end, there's a plan, there is a way for me to grow up and have a life. And it's such a relief to catch even a glimpse of that. It'll be really interesting to see how it plays out, how life... plays out.

Sometimes the soundtrack of our lives calls for some silence.

mad world

I haven't been neglecting my blog. I haven't had anything to say. And not having anything to say can either be accurate at face value or in the inability to filter and focus enough to write anything. Both could be said of me.

I wish I knew what I was really afraid of. I'm sitting here staring at the screen trying to decide how honest to be. Because where I want to go is no place light. And I can't go into the dark without having someone willing and able to pull me out after.