3 weeks away. Ish.

So I'm 18 days away from being married- yay! And weird. And completely ok. And all sorts of things. I'm very excited.

I don't pretend that things won't be challenging, but with that understanding also comes a certain excitement for some adventure. Not that that's the reason I'm getting married, just my outlook on the many changes coming up in my life. I think it has to be that way.

Again thanks to much help and support from many wonderful, wonderful people I know and love, things continue to come together for the wedding. I'm starting to get gifts, and that's pretty cool. I was talking with my mom a bit about the progression of wedding plans, where it seems that 4 weeks out there's much to do, and 1 week out there's much to do, but here I am in week 3 and then 2 just making sure everything that can be sorted out is and trying not to go crazy. I still have a lot of packing to do, but active planning and preparation for the "big day" is coming to a close and preparation for the life to come after is setting in. I suppose it has been for some time now, but with every passing day it sinks in more and more. That connection between leaving and realizing that everyone else is staying is slowly being made in my brain, and although I'll always come back for visits, it will be different.

New and different was my mantra, my motivation for change. And now I'm here, in a place I didn't think would come for me. With the life I've chosen new and different will be a constant, and the skills and experiences I've gained over the last year or so will be a great help in adapting to every new environment.

I'm 18 days away from being married. And I'm so excited :)

wisdom and gratitude

I had my wisdom teeth taken out this morning, and over the day I've been thinking over all the things I'm thankful for through this whole experience.

I'm grateful for:
1. a mom who took a day off work to drive, babysit, save me from myself, and buy me special chocolate milk
2. a dad who let me take over the couch all day
3. siblings who managed to keep the house quieter than usual
4. a kitty who kept me company and kept me warm while I had ice packs on my face all day
5. ice packs
6. a fiance who keeps me looking at the bright side
7. friends who check in to see how I'm doing
8. anesthesia, which made the process more humane. and apparently humorous.
9. applesauce!
10. a comfy couch, painkillers, very vanilla yogurt, and a Blazer victory
11. chapstick chapstick chapstick chapstick...


After some serious memory lapses coming off the anesthesia (thanks Mom, for filling me in), I found myself sore but pretty clear-headed. Despite spending a vast majority of the day on the couch, I managed to get a lot done as far as wedding planning goes. So many wonderful people have come forward offering help and support, and being as this last week was really the first time I had begun to worry about things coming together, help and support are greatly appreciated and has taken a huge load off. It's time for picking cakes, and flowers, and mailing announcements... how exciting!

I hope to be feeling less chipmunky soon - only a month til the wedding :)